2026年1月1日

I've created the site.

2026年1月16日

This vessel of filth is no shrine. Surrender it for rotting, repulsive to the bone. Depression crawls in mercy, begging to take seat as an old friend. The light is bleak and fading into absence.

2026年1月19日

Palely imitating humanity. Through all the skin suits and expressions I've learned to bear, I will never be a real person. Emotions are shallow and the heart hardly beats to signify life.

2026年1月20日

I'm not a Saint.

2026年1月25日

The smell of blood is rousing, as is watching it bubble to the surface.

2026年1月25日

I awoke with praises of Our Holy Mother filling my head. She loves all of her children without hesitation and condition. Is there ever a Mother or Lover truly so pure?

2026年1月25日

↻ Раско́л(ьник)

Skhizo - phrēn
To split: Mind, heart

Skhizo - eidos
To split: Form, likeness

2026年1月26日

[Rx]Prescient dream of a serious event unrelated to personal life.

2026年1月26日

I was considering Debian or Fedora; however, I feel drawn to Arch with Kde. One day I may try Hyprland if I have an excess of time and patience.

2026年1月26日

Let's pierce through the confines of our preprogrammed reason-bound simulations and feel the breath of pure reality wash over us in its ineffable vividity. One feels alone in their room, but this is a solipsistic illusion. We have always been together as one.

2026年1月26日

Sometimes it is as if everything and nothing has happened. Experiences and relationships were fireworks that bloomed spectacularly against void skies. Forever is a lie, and I am afraid of moments becoming corpses, ghosts who recede into a silent nothing. I must bathe in the singing present.

2026年1月26日

Meditation: Let reality wash over you Now. I've always been one for dissociated fugue, contemplation, forecasting, reflection, strategy, and reverie. I live in the inner and unseen worlds. Their call from the shadows is an urging to Live and Love before time buries all.

2026年1月26日

Losing thought in music's tide is sincerely therapeutic.

2026年1月27日

Dreams are the seed of waking life.

2026年1月27日

An empty glass awaits flora's touch in Spring.

2026年1月28日

Akin to the fleshy entrails of a foamed snake's skin. Food leaves me ill.

I want alcohol.

2026年1月28日

Observing actors portray their character and a particular gender, experimenting with expectations and roles, you come upon a realisation. How much of expression and perception can be artfully deliberate and controlled?

2026年1月29日

Some words are better left unspoken.

2026年1月30日

Divine Providence is watching over me.

2026年1月31日

Disgusting.

2026年1月31日

Universe's Grand Symphony: An explosion uniting space-time's resplendent compositional elements.

2026年1月25日 (Pinned)

「 神, Adult, Male. 」

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